I recall loosing my hearing like it happend just the other day. It is something I haven't forgotten and tends to loiter in my thoughts. I guess this is becuase you it has left some form of emotional trauma, supressing such feelings when it all occured seems have done more worse then good. It was something I didn't want to face at the time, it has now caught up with me and left me feeling blank. With such a load of supressed feelings including things like upset, anger, and confusion I can kinda see why I feel blank. I need to seprate these feelings to be able to deal with them one at a time.
I don't know what it is about the whole thing I can't accept the fact it happend to me, the fact things have changed. I just don't know the answers I seek.