When I started this blog a few years back, I was unsure of what I wanted its main purpose to be. To write about disabilities in general, to share my experiences, to spread awareness? That is just my problem, I think too much but I think but I'm ready to accept that, being like this is a part of me. I'm an over thinker. Right now I want to back space this all out. Why you ask? I feel it's not good enough, but who decides what is good enough? It has taken me a long time to realise just that, it's not other people who sabotage us, it is all down to us, the individual staring at this post right now. Don't get me wrong people around us can reinforce that sabotage but at the end of the day, you are the one who decides to let it take over.
What I'm trying to say is I'm done trying to be in control of what is and what isn't. I'm done trying to be perfect. No one is in this world, the word is just that, a word in our vocabulary. I'm not going to hit the backspace button ever again, unless I make a spelling or grammar mistake. I'm not going to think what I write or post anymore is not good enough. I'm not going to tell myself I'm not good enough. I'm done listening to that little tedious voice inside my head.
They say time is a great healer... It takes time for us to realise that, in the moment of despair that feeling of not being able to move forward, is just time on hold. You need time to heal, become more aware and understand that you can't change things that have happened. Ask yourself why would you want to? Every event that has happened up until now, makes you who you are today in this very unique moment.
I have decided my blog isn't going to be perfect and that is okay, perfect is boring. It feels like in this very moment of time I'm ready to share my story, share my experiences both good and bad, share my emotions and feelings attached. In hope that someone who is going through a tough time, feeling like they can't move forward, who can relate. I hope you can use all this information to help you get out of a dark place because this is not just a story, it's a success story in the making, full of hope, such a peculiar word, yet in time I'm starting to understand it's meaning and in time so will you.
Welcome to a new chapter of my blog,